Getting to the root of “Mental disorders” shedding Light on the “medical” manipulation keeping people trapped on meds…

I’ve had this written for a while now and felt it was time to share. This may trigger for some that are still in the stranglehold of the modern day medical system, and if so I encourage you to read to the end as I break it all down to activate a spark inside of you too.   

This entire article is written from my own experiences and being diagnosed with different “mental disorders” in my early 20’s, then choosing to powerfully take things into my own hands years ago guided internally through a Powerful and profound Awakening journey. Always seeing I was meant to share this with others to show there is a way out of it all, by Breaking Free of the inner prison we create being “told” we have a disease or disorder, which couldn’t be farther from the truth.

In this deep process I realized that the systems are rigged to keep everyone looping in a victim state to an “invisible enemy” for Big profit and ultimately to keep us from Awakening, purposefully avoiding the much more profound understandings of getting to the roots of the so called issues. Realizing when we actually get to the roots and pull the roots by healing and resolving the reason the roots are there in the first place we become FREE from all the so called “symptoms, disease, diagnosis” and no longer have what they label as “mental disorder”.

This post is for those that truly want to see, feel and know the higher truth of it all and wanting a way out of the manipulated system that keeps so many trapped believing we have a “disorder” or “disease” which is the farthest thing from the truth as I will share through my own experiences and journey of releasing it all. Then finding a true lust for life, naturally happier than I could have ever imagined from the inside out, every day of my life since, with absolutely nothing weighing me down any longer, no more pills, no more doctors, no more diagnoses, no more pain and suffering, no more sadness and no more labels… which actually became the BIGGEST part of my Awakening process that lead to Ascending my consciousness.

This is a big one for many so I’m going to lay out my process in detail as short as possible, I’m sure many will resonate that have been in the system too, and may this activate a spark inside of you to begin your own process or at least start questioning the system far more than you are already, if not already.

Back in 1998 I was diagnosed with “depression”, I was 23 at the time and was a hot mess in my head.

To give a background… since early childhood I had not loved myself, was insecure, felt I was a “loser” inside because I wasn’t like others, didn’t fit in with the cool kids as it just didn’t jive with me and felt fake, was more of a loner and felt something was “wrong” with me since a very young age because of all this. I just didn’t like who I was and always felt so different from others, it’s not that my mom wasn’t awesome because she was and she loved me dearly and always showed it, it was more that I never felt I fit in with anything or anyone in this world since early childhood. It all felt so weird and messed up, I was sensitive, quiet, shy and not aggressive at all, which back as a child growing up was termed a loser where I’m from because I wasn’t fitting in to how life said a boy should act, I got along with girls more than boys because boys were too rough and reckless for me most of the time. Now realizing life was set up to be very linear, boys should act one way and girls another, no middle ground.

My dad wasn’t in my life since I was 2, although I did have male influences in my life, I just didn't jive with the way life said boys/men had to act or be which we will get back to as this is a big piece of the puzzle.

I didn't enjoy going to school at all, not one bit since early childhood as it felt like prison (I knew deep down it was a fraud), I didn’t want to learn anything they were teaching and just didn't care which back then made me a “bad student”, I didn't want to hang out with the cool kids as I felt they were fake, so I was more of a loner as I had mentioned. I started drinking alcohol and smoking cannabis at a younger age of 16 and didn’t recognize until later in life or acknowledge that they helped me get away from all the negative feelings I held inside of myself, because I was always feeling like a I didn't really fit in, wasn't like others and was always beating myself up for it. I was shy with girls and usually pretended I was someone else to fit in. This all played out in my head daily and was almost all I could think about, I truly believed I was a mess compared to the average man you would see in movies, tv or taught in school how boys and men should be and act..

By the age of 19 I had moved from a smaller city to Toronto for a few years which is where I felt I fit in better because I found a bunch of people that liked to party all the time, I was working as a cook at the time so it all fit, I would just hang out with work friends and we’d party all they time after work which was actually toxic but was filling the void and allowed me to avoid all my inner trauma, emotions, anger, self worth issues.

Then at the age of 23 I had enough, it was all catching up on me and I was now feeling even worse because I wasn't doing anything to be a part of society, I didn't go to college or University and was feeling like more of a failure because of this as thats the way we are PROGRAMMED to think. So I moved back home with my mom and went to see my family doctor. I told him I was a mess and I just didn't like myself and was very honest about it all, very upfront about all the partying, not liking or enjoying life and that’s when I got diagnosed “DEPRESSED”. I remember the “Dr” saying I don't know how to help you but this is classic depression symptoms…, so he prescribed me my first “anti depressant”. said come back in 6 months, so I did. Next meeting I was feeling even worse so he used my dose, added an “anti anxiety” pill and then 6 months later I was still the same so he upped my dose again… but also decided I needed to see a psychologist.. Thats when things got even more interesting because now I was really beginning to believe I was really messed up and had a massive disorder, I was now OWNING the LABELS of “depression” and that was making me feel even worse about myself and my life, then beginning to use it as a shield when things didn't go my way saying “oh, I'm depressed, I cant deal with things properly”, avoiding plans with people because I was drowning I my own self worth issues believing it was a “disease” I had.

Then I went to the psychologist and thought he was going to “Fix Me”, but this guy was a joke, he would just ask me how work was going and basically shoot the “shit” with me, I realized I could just keep him talking about whatever I wanted but he never got deep into my life other than when I filled out the questionnaire before the first meeting… I was blown away at all this, every time I went it was like going to hang out with a new friend and chat about normal things, I wasn't being worked with or guided how to deal with anything in the least, I would just share that I was still feeling worse and not getting any better. I then started just manipulating him for higher doses of pills because I felt it it would help me avoid the crap coming up in my head all the time and feeling horrible about myself, basically wanting to die sometimes but I felt if I told him that I’d end up in the “psych ward” of the hospital, and I knew I wasn't psychotic, was just not liking life and sometimes wished it would end. Which I later realized was two parts in itself, as one of the pills side effects was “suicidal thoughts” which when I looked that up almost threw me sideways and made no sense at all, had me question the pills and what they actually did but still kept taking them because I thought it was the only way, just wasn't working for me. The other piece that I will touch on later is that suicidal thoughts are a BIG part of Awakening at young ages and feeling we don't fit into this reality, feeling its so messed up and not meant to be here…

After a 6 months of seeing the psychologist he deemed that I was fine on my own and handling life well, so I didn't need him. Thats when I realized that the government was paying for these treatments and they were just trying to assess if I was a threat to myself, which had me pondering and questioning the system just like I was now questioning the “pills/medications”. But I felt messed up inside and truly thought I needed something to keep me from getting worse, still trusting the system because there was no other route to get better, anyone I talked to that paid for a psychiatrist was basically getting guidance that didn't make sense to me, was demeaning and didn’t resonate with me at all, so I avoided that too, not wanting to just get trapped in loops with another person that I felt was supposed to help me “FIX” my issues, not loop in them and learn better ways push them away, Which I now see is how the system is set up and mental health “doctors” are trained to avoid the root of the issues, usually not knowing and just following what they learned at school. It just all felt so off so I just went through life on my meds and anxiety pills for years into my mid 30’s, then down the road getting diagnosed with “ADD/ADHD” which had me on more pills, but these pills were amphetamines and that was weird to me, I tried the pills but just felt so off and people would try to buy the pills off me because it was a pharmaceutical grade of street drugs that I was told was equivalent to “meth amphetamine”, People buying it to snort or eat to get HIGH, which was soooo weird and off to me that I got off the pills immediately and never looked back. That again had me questioning the system and the doctors and what was actually going on, because after being on the highest does of anti depressant and switching to a newer one that was “supposed to work better” then getting upped to the highest dose of that one I was now STILL very unhappy, having thoughts of wanting to die, I felt lost and confused and just like drone, zombie for years which was starting to get to me. Nothing was changing, nobody was helping and the doctors weren't trying to “help” me but rather keep me on pills, saying “id be on them for life”, which just didn't sit well with me AT ALL, that statement actually hit me HARD and was the basis to what comes bit later.

This is also around the time my family Dr decided to retire so I found a new doctor and started this entire thing over with someone else, this guy getting me on yet another NEW pill that should work better, but never ever guiding me how to find the ROOT of the issue, just still like everyone else treating it like an ‘affliction, disease, disorder”. Long story short I ended up on the highest dose of these new pills after a bit more time and he wanted to shift me over to another new pill regiment of a mix of pills, combining two together… Thats when I LOST IT, I literally had enough and blasted this guy calling him a “quack”,  telling him he didn't know what he was doing just like everyone else, just a drone doing the bidding of the pharmaceutical companies… lol Im still laughing today 15 years later as I didn't realize at the time I was coming through a MASSIVE Awakening process that had escalated into a deeper phase, now speaking my truth and not taking anyones lies. But…. I was still not understanding how to deal with myself so I ended up speaking to a family doctor in a new city and said to them “maybe I'm bi-polar because my grandfather” was diagnosed with it years back, now feeling it was “hereditary” which its not, its impossible as I will share soon. but they did send me to a new psychologist in a new city and he treated me much better, seemed he actually cared a bit more than the last, asked more questions about me but still never getting to the root of the issues, then making me detox from the anti depressants for a few months before getting on new “bi polar” meds. I felt more comfortable with him so I let him know I had thoughts of wanting Lightning to kill me or a bridge to give out and take me out, but nothing like I wanted to kill myself, I just felt it would be easier if something happened out of my control to make it all go away because i’d had enough of it all by this point, to which he said “your having suicidal thoughts Jeromie, and we need to deal with this”. Little did I know this was a HUGE piece of my AWAKENING..… which I now know is normal in deeper Awakening phases to have these thoughts but doctors cannot treat Awakening or speak to it as I can now. We just wan to get out of this world because it feels so off from how we feel life should be, which is all very normal in an Awakening process. But I had no idea that I was in a deep Awakening at this point, realizing much later that I was MEANT to go through all this to share with others later to help them break out of the manipulated systems.

Then he put me on a HUGE dose of “anti psychotics” and other different medications to treat “bipolar” and anxiety, but mostly the “suicidal thoughts”.… but they weren't suicidal thoughts, it was all part of my Awakening process. This was not fun in the least, I was now drooling out the sides of my mouth, walking into walls, I was so comatose from the “drugs” I couldn't even work, couldn't focus, couldn't almost see straight. I was in food sales at the time selling to restaurants, schools, farmers markets and had to drive all day everyday to see my customers, so I literally had to take 3 months off work, so I took the three months and tried to get used to the pills, because thats all the time my company would give me without letting me go. By the time I went back to work I actually took it upon myself to lower my dose of pills so I could actually function, drive and speak properly. Which is nutty to me as I didn't want to kill myself, I just didn't want to be on this planet anymore, so I was getting a hard lesson on how truly Messed up the systems actually are. Which may seem normal to some just by reading what I said to the Dr, but when you read later about Awakening and the bigger process I was coming through, its just messed right up. I wasn't psychotic in the least, I would never ever harm myself and thats why I never told the first psychologist about this in the first place, but this guy made me feel I could trust him…

Was a crazy time but within 6 more months of these meds and being treated like I was crazy is what actually pushed me into FINALLY calling it quits on ALL the meds and diagnosis's on my own, because I was getting VERY SRTONG messages from deep within myself that I did not need the pills. Took me a bit to really trust this voice inside but it felt so real and true, plus I’d heard this message in my head over the years before just didn't trust it, but this time I did because I felt deeeeep inside that there was a way out of all this craziness, and WOW was I ever glad I trusted this Inner KNOWING and FEELING. This was the Game Changer of All Game Changers for me in my life. This was what set me on a whole new path of realizing that I and WE do not have a mental disorder or disorders, we don't have an affliction, we are NOT crazy, its not a DISEASE… its ALL a massive manipulation to keep people lost and slow down or shut down the Human Awakening Process, but most doctors don’t even realize, well actually many do know deep down inside that the system is all messed up and all about giving out pills, I call it chosen ignorance, for the most part they just ignore and avoid it all for the cash, or they get it and leave the practice… but NEVER has any Dr been taught how to look for the deep roots. You will get the odd one that thinks outside the box and truly cares so much so they get into spirituality and bring that into it all, but to get the roots its soooo much deeper.

Ok, now that Ive gone through my journey of the way I felt about myself growing up, the meds and the diagnosis and how I basically DIAGNOSED MYSELF bipolar by saying my grandfather had it, the Dr just asked some questions and felt I was, because of the answers I was giving, which after 18 years of being on meds and nothing works, of course anyone would seem up and down. Which is the experience that pushed me over the edge.

Now let's get into the Awesome and Empowering parts to Activate a Higher Awareness that I worked through on my own that eventually brought me TRUE FREEDOM from within, WITHOUT needing anything from outside of me, which when you are ready or your journey pushes you into this phase will bring you freedom too. This part wont be as long, i’ll make it short and powerful.

So let’s start with when I was young and feeling I didn't fit in, was a loner, felt like a loser, didn't like myself, very sensitive.. because this in itself is a big part of it. Because we are Unknowingly programmed, conditioned and indoctrinated to believe through “social conditioning”, tv, family, friends, grand parents, movies and school that “we should be, act a certain way” or we “aren’t normal” and something is wrong, which leads into us actually feeling somethings wrong and this is where the deep traumas, messed up beliefs and view of ourselves begin to get created/formed, which is part of the actual ROOTS of the issues that nobody is looking at, added in with the childhood trauma/inner child issues. Then we start to grow through life and never deal with almost ANY of these roots because we have been deeply conditioned and programmed to stuff everything down and away, not talk about it, be embarrass/feel shame/guilt/fear about it, avoiding it all like “the plague” never to be looked at again… which also leads to us becoming the disempowered/victim to all of it either in the moment or over time because we feel it all happened TO US, when really it ALL happened FOR US as I will share below, because this is a big topic and completely backwards to how we’ve been taught life works. Then after holding/stuffing/burying/avoiding/getting annoyed/angry with it all for years and years which keeps digging DEEPER and DEEPER ROOTS as we grow through life. Now add in the rest of the density being the painful memories, traumatic experiences, relationship trauma density we buried through life, all the stories of shame, guilt, blame we hold, the self betrayal, self deprecation of ourselves. Now lets add in all the judgement of ourselves we hold and the bottled up emotions we buried through all of this…

Are you starting to feel how all that I just shared above is and was all actually very purposely pushed away, avoided, never dealt with and whenever it all came up in our heads we AVOIDED it like the plague…..

Now realizing through my Ascension and Embodiment process opening up a Higher Understanding that we've never ever been taught how energy truly flows, and that this is a Quantum reality, we are all each our own magnetic field, and our field is what actually ATTRACTED/MAGNETIZED all these heavy/traumatic experiences into our lives VERY PURPOSEFULLY so we could Consciously Resolve them and Clear them from our energybody/field/reality. Some magnetizing through “karmic debt” we must resolve and others magnetizing though our unconscious's choices not caring what we do and say or how we act, never ever Taking True Responsibility for all of our thoughts/choices/actions. And we have Never been taught any of this very purposefully because this world/reality as i’m sure you are beginning to/realize, has been very controlled and manipulated to suite the interests of the controllers, mostly all for profit and it gets much bigger than this on a much bigger level which is to slow down or block the Human Awakening Process, keeping us docile. They very well know that once a human Awakens they never go back to sleep, and bigger than this, that once a human Awakens they start fighting the systems and screaming about it to the high heavens.

This is why we are in the middle of a Mass Collective Awakening right now, Its been coded in our DNA since birth just like we planned it, because we saw and knew just how deeply we would all take on the 3D manipulated illusion, and that we have actually unknowingly supported it all as a collective by not stopping it, so now its time for us all to Awaken out of it. I know this can be a lot for some that haven’t seen all this yet. I am sharing all this to expand your awareness because we've never been taught the truth about how Energy truly flows, and that we burry ALL of our unresolved experiences inside of our Energy Body as density, and to fully Awaken and Ascend out of the illusion we have to Fully Resolve and Take Responsibility for ALL of our Density that I shared above accumulated through life.

THIS IS THE REASON FOR THE “DEPRESSION/ANXIETY/PANIC ATTACKS/BIPOLAR”..… All of of unresolved and buried painful, emotional experiences being the reason we go to the Dr and ask for pills or they tell us we need pills. Yes not all will admit they are feeling this way and some are really great at hiding it as they don’t want a label, or so good at pushing it all down/away that they don’t realize anymore, have blocked it out so very well like its not happening, but EVERYONE is holding all of their unresolved experiences inside the Energybody as Density until Fully Resolved, and it does come up all the time. Some go to a Dr for a prescription and some burry and avoid very well never associating with the word depression. Many of us jumped at the chance to have a pill that we were told would “fix” us, but truly only we can fix/resolve it, a pill will never ever fix anything, all it does is help us keep avoid our unresolved density. Now it’s almost “normal” to be on depression medication which is nutty but when you realize its all about blocking and slowing down human Awakening, it all makes sense that they give depression meds to anyone for almost anything, even prescribing for sleep issue and weight loss in some cases… They say 1 in 3 people are now on “ssri” (depression) medication for some aspect of mental disorder. Its crazy!! But thats all on purpose for so many reasons as Ive mentioned, this way they can very easily control our reality through keeping us docile/lost/confused and not caring about much so we all just keep going along with the narratives/corruption instead of stand-ing up to it all.

They created a bunch of systems to control us all through FEAR, to keep us very asleep, lost and confused feeding a reality built upon separation/ego/negativity, and keep us feeding the 3D material world “addicted” to convenience. Knowing we are never ever dealing with our traumas and will keep avoiding and pushing it all back down, which eventually leads to freaking out and feeling we need help from a Dr, because there seems to be no other way to deal with anything and NOBODY wants to look into their past unless forced, which is what actually happens though later phases of Awakening and which is why so many are now having all their deep traumas coming up very intensely on repeat in the head and not going away. Because we are now in the phase of Mass Collective Awakening that cant be stopped, its being pushed forward by our earth and entire universe all working in concert to help us come out of this deep dark loop that we are meant to break free of.

The outer world/Illusion/matrix created to keep us all messed up and full of density to the point we can’t take it anymore/life sucks, so we go to a Dr that has NO CLUE in the world how to deal with ANY of this because nobody teaches us/them how energy truly flows very purposefully to keep us all in the lowest frequency/vibration possible, they aren’t taught anything about deep traumas, how they form and how our choices create our reality, how we magnetize ALL of our experiences into our lives to show us what WE hold inside as unresolved that needs to be cleared. Not even a word about WHY we are actually living on this Earth, What our purpose is, just keeping us as dumbed down as possible with the blinders on, judging each other for absolutely EVERYTHING, which they know keeps our frequency extremely low lost in separation.

But heres the thing…, we are ALL meant to Awaken out of this deep dark 3D world, it IS one of our BIGGEST PURPOSES, yet UNKNOWINGLY its been our FREE WILL CHOICE to fall into it all and not break free of it, its been our free will choice to support it all even though a ton of it never ever felt good inside and yes we were born into an already manipulated and controlled reality. But that doest mean we aren't responsible for ourselves and meant to BREAK FREE. SO the point being most of all the things the medical system sells as “ metal disorder”, is actually just unresolved traumas and buried energy from the past that needs to be worked through using much more conscious processes and understanding that we ALL have to eventually resolve our entire past that is stuck inside, because that’s the entire point of Awakening and then Ascending our consciousness/physical body OUT of the manipulated illusion/matrix.I know it can sound or feel crazy in the beginning but its real and you can feel it deep down inside that its true. We've just been so deeply indoctrinated to believe what we are told/taught/programmed/indoctrinated to believe, to avoid everything and run from our past, to be fearful of our future hoping for an easier way out, but this is what Awakening truly is… its not pretty or fun at times but its what we all came here to EARTH SCHOOL to experience, its WHY we are all Awakening together at this very specific time, and it might not make sense yet because we have been so deeply programmed to believe we are worthless specks of dust in an infinite universe, yet its SOOOOO MUCH BIGGER.

We can keep avoiding and hoping for an easier way out, but this is just avoiding our Awakening, there is no easier way out, no quick fix or silver bullet, its what we came here to do.The more I chose to look deep inside myself and purposefully started Resolving and Taking Responsibility for all the deeply buried traumas, painful memories, the shame, guilt, blame, judgement, victim mentalities, lack, self, worth, buried emotions, self betrayal, anger I held, the more FREE I became within.

Yes its a process and takes years to work through, but the faster we dive in the faster its all gone. Truthfully as I started intentionally wanting to resolve my past I started feeling better immediately because my soul knew I was done with living in my head and all the pain and suffering, each piece I worked through felt like a massive truck being lifted off my shoulders until finally Clear, Pure and Whole again. The density holds and weights us down energetically which keeps us looping in all of the old until we finally start putting intentional effort into it all or, we can wait and avoid until our Higher Self Forces us through by collapsing our reality which ends up being the dark night of the soul that doesn't really go away until we take action and do something about it all.

We are at the point into this Collective Mass Awakening that most are now being pushed head first into all that we have been avoiding, the ego loves to avoid. Theres an easy way or a hard way is how I will leave it. I chose the hard way which most do until we cave and cant take it anymore because it all just keeps getting more uncomfortable.

WE ARE THE CHANGE WE SEEK and WE’VE ALL GOT THIS, its what we are here to do, to bring this corrupted world BACK into the LIGHT… It all starts from diving deep within and purposefully doing the deep inner work to clear out all the trapped and avoided density so it doesn’t keep consuming our reality keeping us from living a beautiful life FREE of the past.…

In DEEP RESPECT for your continued dedication to your process wherever you are in your journey.

I LOVE YOU…🤍